Second Chances

Something you will learn about me is that I make mistakes.  I make loads of them.  Not only do I do stupid things, I think stupid things, and then... I've been known to say these stupid things. 

There's nothing extremely unique about me when I say that.  I don't think that I would stand out in a lineup, because I'm sure you can secretly admit to me, when no one is looking, or listening, that you too make mistakes.  There's a saying that goes, "we all make mistakes."   I'm sure you can also agree agree that some of these mistakes are worse than others.  Some mistakes I make go unnoticed, while other mistakes cause major problems.  Problems that can last for months, and months...  Maybe even years? 

It's only Tuesday, but this week, so far, has been a week in which my mind has wallowed in my past mistakes.  For some unknown reason I am remembering mistake, after mistake.  I recall, in particular, one absolutely stupid conversation, in which I said some absolutely stupid things.  And it is frustrating, because in my infinite wisdom that the present offers me, if only I could step back, for one teeny tiny moment, then maybe, just maybe I could right my wrong, and undo the stupid things I said, and then, as a result, did.

That step-back invention doesn't exist.  Trust me, I've looked.  They say Google has all of the answers imaginable.  Well, Google, I've done a search and I'm afraid to say you've let me down!  There is no time machine, no magic un-done pill, absolutely nothing close. 

So, what now?

Before I get to that, something else you will learn about me, is that I believe in God.  I was raised in the Christian faith, and as time has passed I've grown into my own personal faith and relationship with God.  It's a bit difference than the one I grew up with, and it's forever developing and moulding.  This is one of the many blessings in my life.

My faith is a blessing to me, because I know, that regardless of all of that daily mistakes that I am responsible for, the God I know intimately is merciful.  That is a beautiful word, one that holds extreme importance to someone who, like me, like you, makes mistakes.  I like how The Message puts it;

“If you, God, kept records on wrongdoings, who would stand a chance? As it turns out, forgiveness is your habit, and that’s why you’re worshiped.” (The Message)

Psalm 130:3

I want, no, I need second chances.  I don't always get it right the first time around, but I try, and I'll keep trying, and I'll keep hoping that like God gives me a second-go to get it right, I'll be shown mercy and forgiveness in other areas of my life too.  It's a big ask, but that's my ask.

This weekend I spent a lazy, hazy, rainy Sunday afternoon indoors, and created this artwork as a reminder of everything.  I'm a slow learner at times, but I know that I'll get there!  Til I reach 'there', I'll do as this canvas says.  You should too ;)

MJ xx